Oh hai der. Call me Sophia, Sophie, Soph’s whatever floats your boat. Im 15 and I’m Year 11 at Copleston. I live in Ipswich, which is so shit it’s unbelievable. I’ve realised this is the only way I can fully let out my feelings. People like to judge me on what they see, but no-one will understand the real me. I actually cannot stand backstabbing ‘friends’ yeah all girls bitch, but you get the ones who take it to the next level and it’s time they grew up. Everyone’s twofaced and I know I can be, I can become a real bitch when I’m not in the mood. My Family and Brother are my everything, I don’t know what I would do without them, R.I.P Grandma <3. My life is pretty complicated, sometimes I don’t even get it, but nothing was meant to be perfect. Music is my life, it explains so many situations I’ve/am been in, music speaks when words fail too. I’ve been through some pretty shit and pointless relationships all to end up back at square one, I’d love to find a boy who isn’t completely perfect, but perfect for me. I do really hate girls who know they are like stunning but deny it and say they’re ugly when their blates not, it’s just for attention. The thing thats fucking me up the most is my dad. He’s treated me like shit ever since I was little and always favoured my step sister over me, I can never forget how he ruined my childhood, now I have the chance to confront about everything, or forgive and forget, but this is the hardest choice to make. But a few weeks ago I told my mum I now speak to my sister and she was fine with it, it’s just she doesn’t want me to see my dad, but tbh nor do I now. I get an inbox from my stepmum saying a load of bullshit like ‘dad has never stopped loving you’- Well that’s fucking unlucky I don’t love him back, if he loved me he would’ve put up a fight to see me but no as she says ‘it was easier to let things go and let you make your own mind up when you were old enough darling’- fuck that excuse a father should love his only daughter and not favour his stepdaughter, idc if your ‘door is always open’ for me, I don’t want to step anywhere near your door, fucking cunts.
My Grandma meant the complete world to me, I was so close to her and I would tell her everything and anything, but she lost her battle to cancer and it is the most horriblest thing I’ve ever had to go through, I wouldn’t wish it upon anyone.
I’ve been labelled alot of things before: slag;bitch;twofaced;whore, everything, but yeah and what I’m not a virgin, that doesn’t make me any different of a person. Best friends and good friends have pulled me through everything, gone through ups and downs and found who my true ones are. Throughout everything I’ve experienced I’ve learnt not to trust anyone, the ones who seem the most trusting are the ones who are more likely to betray you.
My little brother is completely amazing, at 5 years old my life revolves around him, I would do absolutely anything for him, as much as a pain in the arse he is, he’s a little cutie.
I swear all facebook does is cause arguments nowadays, its pathetic in my opinion. And oh, if you would like to write an insulting status about me, tag me in it next time bitchez; more entertaining.
Wow, just gotta love Freddie Mitchell! She’s a complete babe and oh ‘Ecstasy iz a badman sweet, dnt take it if u do u r a DIPSHIT!’ oh I do love our Science lessons.
I think the word ‘love’ gets thrown around too much these days when no-one actually knows the true meaning. I actually adore Zayn Malik and Adam Levine with a passion. Ngl, I was pretty much in love with my ex and I found it real hard to get over him, spesh with my ex bestfriend all over him on facebook, girls like that really piss me off when they do stuff on purpose to bug/annoy someone else, it really gets me down alot - BUT now he has a new girlfriend and I have realised I am completely over him>< .
There is only one boy in my life who I would do anything for, who I can trust my life with, who I could rely on day or night. I love him, I really do and I know he loves me back. We’ve gone through so much together, some things that I personally, don’t want to remember, but most things I do. Bad times and the good, they all build up our relationship we have. He knows I will always protect him, try and keep him out of danger because I hate seeing him hurt. It kinda breaks my heart not going to lie, cos he means the absolute world to me. I wouldn’t be here today without this boy. Brandon Mayes, boy do I love you.
Quite alot of people think I have a real easy going life, but tbh it’s really far from that. Half the time I wish I was never born, that’s how bad things get to me, but I guess people don’t realise that sorta shit and only see me from the outside I tend to keep things bottled up inside me, I’m really not very open about my feelings and I’ve learnt to surround myself in barriers due to my past. I really don’t find myself attractive like whatsoever, if people (mainly boys) say things like your beautiful gorgeous and all that shit, I never take notice of it no matter how many times they say it I always disregard it and never take it in. I hate the way I look, my family say I look like/take after my dad with his anger and that really frustrates me as I don’t want to be recognisable as a part of him.
And yes, i do self harm. Can’t help it but it’s a way of releasing my anger, it’s too hard to cope anymore. Everyone says ‘stop it, it’s no good for you’ Idec, it helps me and If I want to go about it that way I will.
But ch’eah,This is me, like it or lump it bitches.